Saturday, December 18, 2010

best Christmas EVER!!

This morning Kail found a present by our front door for me.  The note said:

to JaNae- Open now or wait until Christmas.  You are so loved.
Merry Christmas. From some of Santa's elves.

The kids wanted to open it right away.  I wanted to wait.  My sister came over and hung out and we talked about what it might be & who it might be from.  The kids asked a hundred more times to open it but I held strong.  Well that is until the kids went to bed.  Then I decided the note said I could open it now, and I'm terrible at waiting, so I did.  

And you wouldn't be able to wipe the smile off my face!

A Blendtec Blender!! People you do not even know!  I have been wanting one of these for forever!
I was dying, DY-ing!!
I had to call my sister right away.  She was so mad I didn't open it when she was there.  I'm seriously still in shock, and pretty sure the "elves" are going to show up any minute to tell me it was a mistake and take it back.  
 I'm DY---ing!

You know with Gary being gone (this will be our first Christmas apart)  I was kind of expecting my life to be insane, with me ending up hating everything.  But it hasn't been.  I've been uncharacteristically calm.  
It's been a wonderful season so far and this just makes it so much more.

so Thank You Thank You elves!!
(even though I don't deserve it)

now how & to who am I going to pay this forward...


(Oh and I have to tell you that Kail thinks I must be something special because after he read the note he said "Santa's elves know you? wow"  and that was present enough)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

crying & laughing

So I'm pretty sure I've finally lost it.  At least I'm sure that's what it means when reading this blog post I was laughing then crying then laughing then crying & crying & crying.  Yes, crazy, I'm almost positive.
While this woman has undoubtedly gone through so much more than me I could relate so much to wanting to, some days, wear a sign.  Mine would say:  

Please understand, I have 3 kids, my husband is half way around the world risking his life for our freedoms and today the responsibility is too much.

And there are days when I get a tad judgmental.  I know it's shocking, I'm not perfect, sorry for the disappointment :)  I need to remember that others would love to wear a sign too. 
While I was reading it I kept thinking- where are her visiting & home teachers?  It's helped me to remember how important that calling is.  What a great opportunity we have as visiting teachers to go into sisters homes and be able to see what help, spoken or unspoken, is needed. 

I do have to say though that I have been so blessed by such wonderful friends, family & neighbors who are always so willing to help out in every way possible.  Some days I want to wear a sign that says:

thank you for understanding why my house is a mess, and it's 5 o'clock and I haven't showered. Thank you for letting me talk your ear off. Thank you for letting me cry on your shoulder. Thank you for letting my son practically live at your house.  But thank you most of all for the comfort I receive from knowing that if I really really needed you, you would be there.

It's a must read. And if you happen to laugh and cry simultaneously, if you could let me know.  It might mean I'm not as crazy as I think.